honesty isn't always what we think

We are still full from the Sam Adams beer tour from yesterday

We are still full from all the greasy food we have eaten

We are tired from yoga

We are tired from a late night

Now what?

What the hosts on NPR really look like. I think I picture them all looking like professors and librarians. Not because they are stuffy, just because they are smart.

I like it when I look in the mirror and think “yep I am cool”

http://blog.educationalrap.com/post/923337088/i-absolutely-loved-this-there-is-beauty-in

Today I found this daydreaming around tumblr. Instead of writing “wow how amazing” or “so true” I decided to tell why this touched me so much.

Currently I am in a great relationship, I would even dare say fantastic. But the only way this relationship has survived is because I learned that it’s good to be alone sometimes.

When we first started dating 3 years ago, we lived in two different cities about 3 hours apart. We normally would see each other every 2 weeks and talk to each other every day on the phone. Our relationship started out this way. We met and we already lived far apart, but something told us to try it out.

 Everytime that he would leave or I would leave him, I would cry. Sometimes for hours, sometimes even days. I couldn’t fathom what I would do without my new found love by my side. I was say to friends “everything feels right when we are together, and sometimes wrong when we are not” (I can be a bit dramatic) I would feel torn apart when the weekend ended. Torn is too weak of a word, more like ripped.

Why did I feel this way? Well, I didn’t know that it was OK to be alone. That sometimes it is good to be by yourself. He would tell me this all the time, but I didn’t believe it.

A year past and we moved to the same city. “This is going to be great!” I thought “We will always be together.” But this is when I needed to learn that he, needed to be alone sometimes and I should need alone time sometimes too.

I fought this thought in our relationship, hard. We would constantly argue about this and we would constantly end the fight with “You just don’t like to be alone”

Now we live together. I and I am finally realizing the wonderfulness and being alone. It’s not that I don’t want to see him or anyone else. It is just great to sometimes be with you. Allow yourself to do what only you want to do at that precise moment. There are no plans, no worries that you will get in the way it’s just you.